Random Post: Just thoughts.

What can I say I miss Sir to pieces, every moment I spend with him is like total bliss for me. Even though, we aren't together right now the thought of me being with him brings joy to my soul. He just found out that he would be coming here three days earlier than we had planned originally in December. Can someone say I am gonna have a holly jolly Christmas?

Besides that, I had a good day so far, I am behind as far as my lifestyle change goes but thats OK I am not going to be hard on myself about it; I realise that everything is done in the time it's suppose to be done. Sometimes we try to fight against the things that are meant to happen and sometimes we fight for things that for which we aren't prepared. I am certain that I will be able to lose the weight and be healthy for the first time in my life.  

Regardless, I thank God for so many things, I really couldn't wish for a better life. Through the struggles and the hardships I was able to grow stronger and become the person I am today. 

Already changing my plans

Today was supposed to be the day that I would take steps to living a healthier lifestyle but I am already considering postponing it to Wednesday because i don't have enough food in the house to create healthier meals... I feel so disappointed already because I was sure that I would do it today... I also feel disappointed in myself because I feel like I am making excuses.

Anyways we will see I am still going to exercise today though, I have this dvd called walk away the lbs I used to do it a lot before but I stopped before I got in the habit of doing it. I think I have the full set it start at 1mile and I think it goes up to a 6mile walk. I like doing that work out because it  is easy to follow and I can get through the program and still fell like I got some exercise in it. 

I have decided that I will make my weight loss blog public. That way I would feel more accountable and maybe that will give me the push I need to do what I need to do... 

New Journeys

Starting  on Monday I am going to be starting four new "journeys" to help me become the person I want to be. First I am going to start taking better care of my skin. I have suffered from acne since I was about 15/16 and at the age of 26 I am still struggling to get clearer skin. My second journey is a healthy lifestyle/weight loss journey. The third is taking better care of my hair and finally I am going to take better care of my health. The final one is a bit different from the weight loss journey because it has more to do with me getting my thyroid levels under control and taking my medication the way I should. 

I must say that I am completely motivated to doing this so I know it will work. I created two new blogs to document my Hair and Weight loss Journeys but I made them private I am not sure if I want to share the information I will post on those blogs. 

I hope i can stay committed because this is something I really want for myself... 

Sad side of Long Distance Relationships... Saying Goodbye.

Sitting here listening to the clock, I think about the time we have left together just ticking away. I feel pathetic because this is not goodbye it is simply so long see you in December. I feel pathetic because while others shed tears for a long lost love, lovers and partners they will never see again,  I am shedding them for someone I will see again in a few months.

Let me be selffish for this one moment and think only of my sadness no matter how pathetic it may seem. Cause the time we are apart my heart dies and is lonely and awaits the time we will be together again. I am going to dry my tears and put on a smile and think about the happy times we have when we are together. 

Love sucks sometimes,,, But I am in this forever there is no turning back because you are the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. 

Wedding Day Woes Maybe?

Sir and I got officially engaged a few months ago...I dont know if I should say officially because we didn't have a ring, (we took our ring money and went to Andros for four days...lol) Anyways, we know that we want to get married some time next year, however, as far as planning the wedding and our big day goes we discussed that we just want to do something quick and easy that involves us spending as little money as possible. Originally, we thought to go to city hall and sign some papers then go on a 2 week road trip around Europe (well nearby countries) and just enjoy a fantastic and adventurous honeymoon. Now our wedding plans are dependent on where we are going to live. (The Bahamas or The Netherlands)

For some reason the idea of a hassle free, wedding is pleasing to me. I don't need the spotlight to be on me, I want it to be our day a day we will remember and something that is private and only for us both. Ironically my values and ideas of a wedding and wedding day have changed drastically since I met Sir. When I imagined myself getting married I pictured my future husband and I surrounded by 20 of our closest family members followed by a blowout party that included everyone who didn't have the privilege of being invited to the wedding. But now when I picture my wedding day I only see Sir and Me standing before each other making the promise of always being together and sticking with each other from now and forever regardless of the struggles we may face as time passes on. Then us going off to enjoy the start of our marriage lives. I must say that I am really curious how our wedding day will pan out. Either way I am sure we will be laughing a whole lot cause we always have a great time together regardless...lol This dude...lol 

Almost time to say goodbye...

The last 3months have truly been amazing. Every moment that I get to spend with Sir is like being in a Never Never Land where time just seems to stop, and I am in a place where nothing but great things happens and all that surrounds me is love and happiness. I can never say enough, just how happy I am  to have this man in my life and just how much he means to me. Sometimes, I feel like I am going to wake up and this is all going to be just a dream. Sometimes, when I am with him I want to pinch myself just to make sure that this is real.

However, reality finally sets in and time catches up with us and it is time to once again say so long see you again in a few months. And my eyes fill with tears and I feel like my heart is being riped from my body and I wonder why am I always so sad when I have to leave him? Why haven't I adjusted to the distance after 4.5 years of being in this long distance relationship? I think the answer to that question is, every time we are together it is a unique experience. We learn more about each other and we fall in love with each other for the hundredth time and while some people believe that another person cannot complete them Sir completes me and I love him with all my heart...  He completes me. He is the ying to my yang...

Kiddie Underwear: When is it too old to wear them?

Over the weekend Sir and I went shopping and I bought A LOT of underwear. I seriously think I have enough new underwear to wear one every day for the next two months... (give or take a few days...lol) One thng I noticed while I was sorting my new purchases was that all my underwear is either brightly coloured or it had some sort of cartoon character on it. I have underwear with Mickey Mouse on it, I have underwear with Snoopy I have some with hearts and buttons they are reminiscent of underwear I wore when I was 3...

Which made me wonder, am I too old to be wearing those types of underwear? And should I upgrade my underwear choice to something that's a bit more age appropriate or even sexier???? Ummm I have no idea though the jury is still out on this one. What can I say? Maybe, I like having snoopy kissing my a$$...lol 

Random Quote...

I found this quote and I thought I would share it...

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.


-Rick Warren