A message to the love of my life...

Dear _________. (you know your name :P)

I am happy to have you in my life. You are certainly a dream come true and even though we may have our ups and downs i would not change anything about you. You may not be perfect but you are perfect for me. Your the yin to my yang and we provide balance each other's lives. I love that we can talk about EVERYTHING and i love the open relationship that we have. I love how you make me feel protected and its a comfort to know that i can always count on you. I just want to say from the bottom of my heart that i love you now and forever... Thats a promise and a threat...lol I love you hun

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its that easy ronald :P

'I'm in love with my grandson and we're having a baby' - New Idea Magazine - Yahoo!Xtra Lifestyle

'I'm in love with my grandson and we're having a baby' - New Idea Magazine - Yahoo!Xtra Lifestyle

I was reading this story and i couldnt help but be grossed out. I know that people say cousins make dozens but having an open relationship with your grandparent? That is sick on so many levels. I think of myself as being a very open person but there is no way i could begin to understand what would bring someone to date his/her grandparent. Long story short they should get their minds checked cause they are crazy... Here i thought nothing could top my voodoo story. I guess i was wrong...lol

Witchcraft and Voodoo... WTH?

I live in the ghetto, (well more like surrounded by the ghetto my corner is pretty boring.) I have this neighbour she is seriously one flew over the crazy nest. She has herself convinced that someone is trying to work black magic on her. Now i was a fan of the chipmucks i know the witch doctor song. I remember the Ooh to the eeh the ooh the aah ahh to the ting to the tang to the wallawalla bingbang all that is fine. But this woman walking around the yard talking about how people trying to put stuff down for her and her children. Mind you i never saw anyone strange around where we live. Not only that she spends her day sprinkling salt and sweeping the yard... WTF???? are people seriously so obsessed with voodoo and black magic that they seriously take those types of measures against people? Like i said i live in the ghetto but this is the first time i ever met someone so obsessed with the notion of being fixed and fixing others. Makes me want to call the bus to pick her crazy azz up.

He said this to me...lol

So i am talking to my bf on google talk, and he says this to me...lol

Him: thank you for everything my love (K)

i serious man... dis is so cool :P

i is be happy ta be ya man, ya no

i een joking ya no...

Me: (speechless) wondering who told this white dutch man he can speak bahamian english? White bahamians dont even speak bahamian english...lol im just gonna laugh cause its cute and hopefully he wont do it in public...

Joke 4 Dayz

My first family island experience.

I can believe i am doing this, but i am planning a trip to South Andros. I am pretty sure i said that i would never visit a family island. My reason for saying that is because i consider myself to be a city mouse. I don't like the idea of mosquitoes buzzing around my head nor am i enthusiastic about the boring atmosphere of little people limited cars and nothingness. Some how that N word (never) has came to haunt me and now i am actually excited about the things i used to loathe.

I am looking forward to laying on the beach (in the shade of course i do not need a tan) , going fishing, (yea right not happening) exploring the area on a bike ( i hope i remember how to ride) and just relaxing (there is a word i almost forgot about). I am looking forward to spending time with my boyfriend on a beach in the middle of no where...

Sounds relaxing doesn't it?

Believe it or not i don't need you to like me.

I wonder why people waste their time and mine by being nice to me when they know they dont really like me? I am a person who really dont care who likes me or who doesn't. I know that scientists believe that we are social beings and need others around us but truth is i defy that law. I dont care to be around people. I tolerate them because i feel like i have to, therefore it is more of a thing i do rather than a thing i like. I do it more because i don't want to hurt anyone else feelings there are some people that want others to like them. I am someone who wants to know if a person doesn't like me so we can do each other a favour and keep our distance, We can avoid the awkward smiles and the fake courtesies, I can pretend I don't see you and you can pretend the same. We can be invisible to each other and there will be no hard feelings. (I promise you will be doing me a favour.)

What i don't want is for you to pretend you like me. Pretend to be my friend but in the back of your mind your plotting ways to expose the side of me you think exists. I am pretty much a straight forward person. I can credit that to my family because they are pretty honest people. The thing about you is that your easy to read, your just like a book. All your pages are open and everything is written in large print. There isn't anything ambiguous about your feelings towards me, and while you think I have no idea of your intentions truth is I am keeping you close because i don't trust you. I realised a while ago that two can play this game. So while you think you have one up on me truth is you have been exposed. When you are ready to be real, none of your intentions will be a surprise to me because like i said before you are like an open book, and i have read all your chapters. Keep being fake. Keep thinking your playing me cause your the only one being played and you are dispensable. I wasn't always this smiling nice girl you think i am. Plus in case, you forgot my life will still go on even if your not in it. I hope you have your seat belt on cause its gonna be a bumpy ride, you really have no idea what you have gotten yourself into.

Note: This is a message to the fake persons in my life who think i have no idea they don't have my best interest at heart.

I would stalk you...

Yes i would...

Have you ever met someone and the first thought that came to your mind was something like " if i was crazy i would seriously stalk you?" Crazy right? yea well i am like that sometimes. Whenever i see a man that i find extremely attractive, i see myself being obsessed with that person. Like standing outside his bedroom window watching him sleep. Hanging around his job waiting for him to leave work. Keeping track of what he eats for breakfast, lunch and dinner... Sending him flowers and I'm watching you boo notes from his secret admirer. Leaving messages written in lipstick on his bathroom mirror saying I'm watching you. Calling him on the phone and breathing deeply through the receiver when he answers. Telling everyone he is my baby daddy just freaking him out completely. I know you're probably thinking this chick is crazy, maybe I am. Maybe I need to be locked up in a padded room. Just keep one thing in mind...

I WOULD stalk you...

Disclaimer: I think this is something i should add cause i dont know who is reading my ish... But i was just kidding about all that stuff i wrote up there its supposed to be funny in a creepy is she serious way. I am not serious the only person i would stalk is my boyfriend if he ever breaks up with me and he already knows that...lol

My spending problem...

So anyone who knows me probably knows i am a shopaholic (i have no idea if that word actually works here) anyways i will tell you about me. Whenever i like something i buy a lot of it. Like i cant not just have one of an item that i like i have to have multiples of that item. I think my earliest recollection of my spending obsession started with buying pencils. When i was in primary school i bought a lot of pencils, lie whenever i saw a pencil i had to buy it. (i have out grown but well it has evolved.)

Then when my obsession with pencils died i started buying a lot of pens, (i still is there but not as bad as it used to be) at any given point i probably had like 100 pens and i would still buy more. Then my obsession went towards buying novels i currently own maybe 200 novels? 300? it would have been more but some borrowers wanted to become owners. From there i got an obsession with cds and then with cd players and then to makeup and now hair products. I am obsessed with buying hair products (oh somewhere in my buying history there should go electronics). I just like spending money in general. I get a thrill when i spend money and i dont have to buy anything in particular which is evident from my multiples. I think i just prefer to be broke if truth be told. Because there is simply no logical reason to buy items that you already have. Like seriously you can only write with one pen at a time why do you need 100? (i dont currently have 100 pens right now though just so you know). Being clever i have come up with reasons to justify to my boyfriend why its absolutely necessary for me to have more than one of the same item. (he doesnt buy it but he lets me think that he does).

Although i find it funny (at times) i think its important for me to get a handle on this because it is a real problem. I know what i can do to prevent over buying like for example i could leave my money home and only take what i need to last through the day but my urges to spend money triumphs over my common sense. Hopefully i will be able to do something about it soon cause this really isnt worth it.

HEY THERE ITS ME :D

Yea so its be a little while since i posted anything, i have had some topics to blog about but i haven't been in the mood to do it. Now i have no idea what to write about. I guess i can start by saying.... Yea im still blank maybe i will leave this as a short post maybe i will update it later we will see.

You Owe Me Heffa

This is something I don't think i will ever understand. Why is it that people who owe you always make it seem like they doing you a favour by paying you back? Excuse me miss? I don't ask you to owe me, you made that decision. So when i ask for my money the only story you should give me is one that is entitled i have your money there you go. I am not interested in what else is going on in your life, those things wasnt going on when you decided you would owe me. Yes i am someone who wants me money when you told me you would give it to me, a day before is fine a day after I am pissed.

Dont get my wrong i know that you shouldnt lend someone something with the intention of getting it back. However, i am a person of integrity, if i owe someone i will make sure they get their money, they dont have to ask me for it because i borrowed the money i know i owe them. But this like everything else in life is a learning experience and i have learned my lesson.

Signs That You Are Ready For Love.

1. You love yourself, If you do not love yourself you cannot love someone else. There is no debating this topic. Thats just the way it is, how can you expect someone else to love you or for you to love someone else if you dont love yourself first. Loving yourself means that you except who you are and you dont need someone else to validate you or the value that you have for yourself.

2. You let go of baggage. Baggage is represents a number of things, its old love, crushes or passions. Its self esteem issues. Its anything that causes you not to be open emotionally to relationships. How can you expect to love someone else when your heart and mind is jammed with other issues and feelings.

3. You are happy being alone. I think this is self explanatory, however, relationships sometimes have a way of not always being what you want it to be. Sometimes there are times when you would want your partner to be able to spend time with you but they are busy with other things. The person who is codependent sabotages their relationship by being too needy or always wanting to be around their partner 24/7 not everyone needs to be around partners for that long.

4. Your know what you want in a relationship.

Love your partner

If you are lucky enough to meet someone who cherishes you and makes you feel special, the best thing you can do in return is to love that person back and be there for them no matter what comes your way. When times are hard and you feel like giving up, knowing that your loved one is by your side should be the strength you need to help you overcome that obstacle. I am lucky enough to have met the man of my dreams, someone who supports me and loves me for who i am. He is someone who i can count on and who knows that he can count on me cause I am here to stay i have no where to go and i have nothing but eternal love for him...

Yes/No

Yes i love ice cream

No its not good for me

Yea i am black

No i am not from Africa

Yes I wear glasses

No i am not wearing them right now

Yes i wish everyday was weekend

No i don't like getting up early in the morning

Yes i get up early

No I cant sleep late

Yes I do have secrets

No i am not gonna tell you what they are

Yes I love my boyfriend

No i dont need another one

Yes i have a cellphone

No you cant call me...lol

Yes I have love traveling

No i dont like flying

Yes i wish i had money

No i dont want a job