Sunday, September 12, 2010

Depression...

I have battled with depression for so long that I can barely remember when it started. About three years ago my depression had peaked and there were times I felt like i was going over the edge. I was on depression meds for a while and it did make me feel goodish but I also gained five lbs after taking them for a week. So I stopped taking them and the sadness came back.  But thats another story for another day. 

The last year and a half i would say that I have been able to manage my depression (with the help of God and   Sir) but now it feels like it is trying to take hold of me again. I have been trying to fight back tears for the last three days now and I really don't know what to do. I tell myself this will pass just try to stay positive and happy but the self coaching only makes it harder for me to hold back the tears. What I hate most about depression is that it sneaks up on you and it overwhelms you and it makes you feel like you don't have control on your life and that everything is way worse than it truly is. Nevertheless, I have made up my mind that I will not be a victim of depression. 

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