30 days of Truth

Long story short, I found this on someones blog and decided I would do it too... I thought why not participate? It will give me something to blog about in between trying to think about things to blog about.  


Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Life Don't Give Do Overs (CoKe Soda Ramblings)

I am sure everyone at some point in their life wishes they could go back and change some of the things they did in the past. Or maybe take up and opportunity that they let pass by. I know I have a lot of things that I would love to do over/change in my life. Unfortunately, it is not possible.  The fact of the matter is, all we are destined for is to continue life one day at a time until the time we have has expired and we most leave this place that only gives us one chance to get things done. Sometimes that seems unfair because some people really don't get that much time to do anything.On the other hand if you take advantage of the time you do have and you do things the way you want it done why have regrets? Where does the need to do things over come from? Why is it even a desire for most? Just think about think about what answers you come up with. Share if you wish.

Coke Soda Keeps me Awake...

Yea the title says it all. I cannot drink coke soda cause then I will be staring at my laptop screen with nothing to do except try to think of what I can do on the internet. The funny part is my eyes are burning because they want to be closed so badly but my mind is racing just I just drank a cup of coke soda! (well I did but that's besides the point!). What did I do to deserve this? I was thirsty and didn't think about it before I drank the coke. I know that I can't handle my caffeine but did that deter me from drinking the coke soda???? NOPE IT DIDN'T. Anyways enough of my idleness I am going to bed. I rather stare at the tv anyways. Good night PEEPS I am off to bed.

What's Up?

It has been a while since I posted anything on this blog. Truth is I don't have anything to post about. I have been posting on my other blog about my weight loss journey. I started a 30 day challenge that encourages (read forces) me to exercise everyday twice a day. I am only on day 5 but so far it is going good. Additionally, I am learning a lot about myself. I am realising that sometimes it good to challenge yourself because it gives you opportunities to reflect on your work ethics and it gives you a chance to change through trial and error things you may want to change about yourself. I am learning that it is important to set goals for yourself because it provides a focus. Wondering aimlessly through life doesn't get you anywhere because you have no idea where you are going. It is like Tom Hanks at the end of the movie castaway, his life was not the way he had left it and he found himself at a cross road and had no idea which route to take because he had no directions to follow. Goals gives us a direction to travel in. 

Are you trying to achieve something? (Tips)

Write it down and then write down what you need to do to make those things happen. Give yourself a set time to achieve those goals be realistic, give yourself the time you think you would need in order to accomplish those goals. Reflect on how things are going, don't beat yourself up about it if you stumble along the way, shat happens just pick yourself up and try and again try again (little bit of Aaliyah for yall)... Finally Good Luck

Feeling Better

It really helps to have someone to talk to when you're feeling bad. Sir thank you so much for being that person. Ik hou van je. Je bent mijn engel...lol imagine me saying engel...lol HAHA that's funny 

Depression...

I have battled with depression for so long that I can barely remember when it started. About three years ago my depression had peaked and there were times I felt like i was going over the edge. I was on depression meds for a while and it did make me feel goodish but I also gained five lbs after taking them for a week. So I stopped taking them and the sadness came back.  But thats another story for another day. 

The last year and a half i would say that I have been able to manage my depression (with the help of God and   Sir) but now it feels like it is trying to take hold of me again. I have been trying to fight back tears for the last three days now and I really don't know what to do. I tell myself this will pass just try to stay positive and happy but the self coaching only makes it harder for me to hold back the tears. What I hate most about depression is that it sneaks up on you and it overwhelms you and it makes you feel like you don't have control on your life and that everything is way worse than it truly is. Nevertheless, I have made up my mind that I will not be a victim of depression. 

Rude People Rant

Since when is it the in thing to be rude? It is like everyone (well a large majority of persons) act like there isn't anything wrong with being rude! Are you kidding me? Last week in my oral communication class we had to give a speech about ourselves. One girl mentioned her dynamic pastor someone who she had great respect for and in the middle of her explaining what she liked about her pastor and another girl blurted out, "you talking about that sissy (gay) man?"

The whole class was shock that the other girl had the audacity to make a statement like that about the pastor. If he is a sissy that is between him and God how is that affecting anyone else's life???? Come on seriously???

Today I went to the store and I held the door open for this lady because she was struggling with her bags and she didn't open her mouth to say thank you yet. I was thinking (out loud) Miss is you serious??? Thank you should already be in your vocabulary but if you need me to teach you how to use it I can. She turned to look at me but the expression on her face read I know you aren't talking to me. I could have just left her there and not helped her with the door, hell i should have just left her there. I honestly do not have any patience for rude people. 

I swear the next person who is rude to me today is going to get it!