I decided to write this blog post after reading one that my cousin wrote on her blog (check it out its pretty interesting just click here :D). In a nutshell her blog post is a rant on the her views on dieting and the measures she have taken to live up to standards others have placed on her (its pretty much implied of course so these are more my words than her own.) She puts things in a way that although its quite serious there is still something comical about her words. In addition, the way she expresses herself makes you reflect on the limits you have taken to live up to others expectations. I can related on everything she said especially the part about family,
I am aware that our family can be really outspoken and cruel with words sometimes. For some reason they think it helps to point out someone flaws and are oblivious, to the damage it does on the self esteem. I think it is apart of the Bahamian culture to point out someone's weight gain, but how did that become a social topic anyways? What happened to not asking about a woman's age or weight? But thats another topic for another day. As far as dieting is concerned and my view of my own "struggles" my "journey" if I can call it that begins like this...
I am aware that our family can be really outspoken and cruel with words sometimes. For some reason they think it helps to point out someone flaws and are oblivious, to the damage it does on the self esteem. I think it is apart of the Bahamian culture to point out someone's weight gain, but how did that become a social topic anyways? What happened to not asking about a woman's age or weight? But thats another topic for another day. As far as dieting is concerned and my view of my own "struggles" my "journey" if I can call it that begins like this...
Weight became an issue for me after i turned 22/23, before that even though i did the whole roller coaster ride of gaining weight in the summer and losing it during the rest of the year especially winter, (backwards i know but thats how i was) i always stayed within the healthy range typical of my height and age. At around 21 (maybe even earlier) I developed hyperthyroidism, one of the symptoms associated with that disorder is constant hunger, I was eating way more than i normally did and even though i gained weight it was nothing compared to how much i was eating. that is to say for the amount of food i was eating in a day I should have gained triple what i gained. Anyways i mentioned my hyperthryoidism in my struggles with weight for two reasons. 1) My overeating became a habit as a result of my constant hunger, and 2) Once received treatment I developed hypothyroidism and because that went untreated for a while I gained 30lbs in 2months! While hyperthyroidism speeds up your metabolism, hypothyroidism slows it down considerable, aside from that it takes away your energy and make your feel heavy and the mental energy it takes to motivate your body to do something when your feeling tired is really just are tiring.
So anyways getting even more on point..lol The weight i have gained of course has been criticized by EVERYONE who knew me when i was slimmer, I really wish i had a dollar for everyone who looks at me with mouth dropped and who had the audacity to utter to me " HOW DID YOU GET SO BIG?" or " WOW? WHAT HAPPENED YOU USED TO BE SO SLIM" my favourite is "STOP EATING SO MUCH WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN I WANT YOU BACK TO YOUR OLD SIZE"... yea thats gonna happen...
Although I find it quite funny now, at first it really bothered me and my self esteemed suffered too much to want to talk about in a blog. But one day i realised that if i let what they say to me affect how i feel about myself i would probably end up committing suicide. I do want to lose the extra weight i have gained, i even know how to do it cause i have had success with weight loss even after my diagnosis i just haven't; stuck to it long enough to reap the rewards of my heard work. I think before i can do another diet i have to change the word diet to lifestyle change and take the necessary steps to lose the weight in a gradual healthy way that incorporates exercise and a balanced diet. I think it time that the meaning of diet gains back its true meaning, a diet doesn't mean to limit carbs or limit yourself to eating only bird seeds, a diet is simple what you eat...
Although I find it quite funny now, at first it really bothered me and my self esteemed suffered too much to want to talk about in a blog. But one day i realised that if i let what they say to me affect how i feel about myself i would probably end up committing suicide. I do want to lose the extra weight i have gained, i even know how to do it cause i have had success with weight loss even after my diagnosis i just haven't; stuck to it long enough to reap the rewards of my heard work. I think before i can do another diet i have to change the word diet to lifestyle change and take the necessary steps to lose the weight in a gradual healthy way that incorporates exercise and a balanced diet. I think it time that the meaning of diet gains back its true meaning, a diet doesn't mean to limit carbs or limit yourself to eating only bird seeds, a diet is simple what you eat...
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