Remembering M.J

It is quite astonishing how quickly time passes! I can hardly believe that it has been a year since Michael Jackson passed away. He will certainly be missed and it will probably be a long time before another artist impacts the lives of others the way Michael did. Anyone who truly listened to his lyrics can feel what an humanitarian he was and how much he loved people.  His music makes me reflect on my life and the changed i want to make. There is no better way to say it but if you want to bring about change you have to start with the "Man in the Mirror!" Anyways...In honour of his death i though i would post my top 10 favourite MJ songs. So here we go... 

11. Beat it
10. Leave Me Alone
  9. Remember The Time
  8. The Way You Make Me Feel
  7. Heal The World
  6. We Are The World
  5. Thriller
  4. Man In The Mirror
  3. Earth Song
  2. This Is It
  1. Will You Be There

Ok I couldn't list only 10 so i made it 11...lol Sue Me!

 Looking beyond the controversy this is how I remember him... Michael definitely was the King of Pop... Truly Talented

(August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

It's sad how the world preys on the weak... No matter what we have to stay strong and be our personal best.

Does the Mirror Deceive me?

I took a shower this morning wore a shower cap and everything so i wouldn't get my hair wet and once i was out the shower i got dressed and styled my hair. I tried a new product in my hair it was a sample pack that i got from a store and when i first applied it i loved how it made my dry brittle hair feel soft an manageable. Then i looked in the mirror and i though wow am i finally having a good hair day? I absolutely loved how my hair looked in the mirror, I liked it so much so that i decided to take a picture.

However, for some reason my hair on camera did not look as good as it looked in the mirror. Which made me wonder, are my eyes deceiving me? When i look in the mirror do i actually see what i look like or what i want to look like? I'm just going to ponder about this for a minute or two... (if i feel like it i will post the picture...)

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Every morning he wakes up, kisses me on the lips and tell me how much he loves me and how happy he is to have me in his life. Every day (several times a day) he asks me if he told me yet how much he loves me? My response to that question is always" yes, too much" and his reply to my answer is always "no, never enough".

I didn't take that paragraph from a romance book and no it wasn't from a scene in the romantic movie or series, its an actual event that happens in my relationship. God has blessed me with a very loving and romantic man who doesn't hide how he feels about me. I am as happy to have him in my life as he is to have me in his. Don't get me wrong I am not saying that we have a perfect relationship or we are free of disagreements, i am simply saying that we are really blessed to have each other. Although, we may have down moments there isn't anything I would change about him, I wouldn't change his stubbornness, (which annoys me a lot sometimes but it is also one of the things that kept us together when I wanted to give up) neither would i change the way he nags me to make posts on my blog. ( he is my number one fan)

There are a number of things that I love about the man in my life (whom i often refer to as Sir,,,) I love how we can have fun and laugh in every situations. I love how happy I am when we take "stukje lopen" (short walks) I love the way he loves me, I love how thoughtful he is, I love how caring he is and I love how selfless he is but most of all I love how spontaneous he is as well.

Last week he surprised me with 10 very beautiful red long stemmed roses. It was such a surprise, I didn't expect it at all, it had only been the second time in the 4.5 years we were together that he bought me flowers (the story about how i got the other flowers is an hilarious one i have to remember to blog about it some time.) But it was such the sweetest gesture, he bought me flowers just because he was thinking about me and wanted to do something special for me. It really brings happy tears to my eyes to think that I was able to find  someone to spend my life with who cherishes me as much as he does. Now i am understanding why so many people search for love because once it touches your life you are never the same again.

Movie Review: Alice in Wonderland

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Last Sunday Sir and I went to see Alice in Wonderland in 3D. I was extremely excited to see the movie because I am a fan of Tim Burton Movies, (Corpse Bride, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory) and I respect Johnny Depp as an actor. No one could have stopped me from seeing that movie, I had even planned to get it on DVD and i mean the real DVD not the bootlegged shat thats sold on the streets. I was going to buy the original! (i don't usually buy DVDs i wait for it to play on network tv...lol). I just knew the movie would be something that i could watch over and over. Sir and I got popcorn, chips and Ben and Jerry's ice cream all ready to relax and fully indulge while we watch an enjoyable movie. Like, seriously,  my mother couldn't have told me that i wasn't going to like that movie and it was going to be in 3D? Was they serious?

However, to my disappointment that was not the case. To say the least the movie didn't live up to any of my expectations, it was a complete bust and probably the worse movie i saw all year. The plot was extremely boring and lacking and the movie just wasn't fun. If i hadn't paid to see the movie i wouldn't have watched it to the end. I probably would have left after the first 10mins of the movie. I wouldn't have seen Alice fall into that rabbit hole again and i certainly wouldn't have seen her slay that damn dragon,( no mam sorry, life is too short to waste watching a boring movie)... I still had a great day with Sir of course but the movie sucks and i wouldn't recommend it to anyone not even my enemies. (I am not going to be responsible for the death of others (death by boredom that is))

Postives:

Great cast, Everyone in the movie really had the right attitude for the part they were playing.
The movie eventually ends (Yea seriously i felt like the movie was 10hrs long it was so boring)

Cons;

The 3D effects sucked, there was a little depth in the movie and the colours were bright and pretty but i felt like i was in the movies with shades on, there were a lot of opportunities where the 3D effects could have enhanced the movie but it wasnt there.

As i said before the plot was boring... The movie is a good for putting you to sleep.

Taking Better Care of Me for ME ( Re: Ready to Diet!?!)

I decided to write this blog post after reading one that my cousin wrote on her blog (check it out its pretty interesting just click here :D). In a nutshell her blog post is a rant on the her views on dieting and the measures she have taken to live up to standards others have placed on her (its pretty much implied of course so these are more my words than her own.) She puts things in a way that although its quite serious there is still something comical about her words. In addition, the way she expresses herself makes you reflect on the limits you have taken to live up to others expectations. I can related on everything she said especially the part about family,

I am aware that our family can be really outspoken and cruel with words sometimes. For some reason they think it helps to point out someone flaws and are oblivious, to the damage it does on the self esteem. I think it is apart of the Bahamian culture to point out someone's weight gain, but how did that become a social topic anyways? What happened to not asking about a woman's age or weight? But thats another topic for another day.  As far as dieting is concerned and my view of my own "struggles" my "journey" if I can call it that begins like this...

Weight became an issue for me after i turned 22/23, before that even though i did the whole roller coaster ride of gaining weight in the summer and losing it during the rest of the year especially winter, (backwards i know but thats how i was) i always stayed within the healthy range typical of my height and age. At around 21 (maybe even earlier) I developed hyperthyroidism, one of the symptoms associated with that disorder is constant hunger, I was eating way more than i normally did and even though i gained weight it was nothing compared to how much i was eating. that is to say for the amount of food i was eating in a day I should have gained triple what i gained. Anyways i mentioned my hyperthryoidism in my struggles with weight for two reasons. 1) My overeating became a habit as a result of my constant hunger, and 2) Once received treatment  I developed hypothyroidism and because that went untreated for a while I gained 30lbs in 2months! While hyperthyroidism speeds up your metabolism, hypothyroidism slows it down considerable, aside from that it takes away your energy and make your feel heavy and the mental energy it takes to motivate your body to do something when your feeling tired is really just are tiring.  

So anyways getting even more on point..lol The weight i have gained of course has been criticized by EVERYONE who knew me when i was slimmer, I really wish i had a dollar for everyone who looks at me with mouth dropped and who had the audacity to utter to me " HOW DID YOU GET SO BIG?" or " WOW? WHAT HAPPENED YOU USED TO BE SO SLIM" my favourite is "STOP EATING SO MUCH WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN I WANT YOU BACK TO YOUR OLD SIZE"... yea thats gonna happen...

Although I find it quite funny now, at first it really bothered me and my self esteemed suffered too much to want to talk about in a blog.  But one day i realised that if i let what they say to me affect how i feel about myself i would probably end up committing suicide. I do want to lose the extra weight i have gained, i even know how to do it cause i have had success with weight loss even after my diagnosis i just haven't; stuck to it long enough to reap the rewards of my heard work. I think before i can do another diet i have to change the word diet to lifestyle change and take the necessary steps to lose the weight in a gradual healthy way that incorporates exercise and a balanced diet. I think it time that the meaning of diet gains back its true meaning, a diet doesn't mean to limit carbs or limit yourself to eating only bird seeds, a diet is simple what you eat... 

Current Mood: Bored but Happy...

I should be studying dutch right now but i dont feel like it. Waiting for sir to get home from work. Sometimes i feel like my life revolves around him... Anyways...

South Andros

I don't remember the specific dates anymore, (i am pretty sure it was in May) my boyfriend and I went to South Andros (along with my sister and her friend but they aren't important right now this post is about sir and I). We stayed at the Emerald Palms and we had LOTS OF FUN :D I was always afraid of the island life, (more specifically i was afraid of the bugs and extreme boredom) nevertheless, sir and I got it into our heads that we wanted to go to a family island. We had two criteria for choosing the island we would visit 1) it had to be close to Nassau, (i and not ready to venture far from Nassau, kind of ironic since I am currently in Holland) and 2) we wanted to go somewhere fairly quiet.

Our first choice was the Berry Islands (they were having a festival around the time we wanted to go) however we couldn't find anywhere nice there to stay so we decided we would go to Mangrove Cay. Mangrove Cay turned out to be a no go because the bed and breakfast we wanted to stay at was full so we were on the search again. It was frustrating trying to find an island to visit, I almost took it as a sign that we shouldn't go. But third time was a charm and finally we found a nice hotel that had room for us :D yay Emerald Palms!

Emerald Palms was a really nice hotel and the staff is extremely friendly. The rooms are beautiful and there are a lot of native trees on the property, we were lucky enough to get some coco plums. I would certainly recommend this hotel. (Be warned that the food at the hotel is really expensive though... Especially for a limited menu.) Another plus of staying at Emerald Palms was we were able to get free plane tickets because we bought our tickets through the two fly free promotions that was (probably still is) going on.

I must say that I had a GREAT time with sir and our two other companions, we made lots of happy memories and we had such a great time. We went swimming, bike riding and fishing. Unfortunately, sir and I suck at taking pictures so we don't have much pictures to show for the nice time we had... Nevertheless i have a few pictures that i can share.

Final thoughts, would i go back to South Andros? Of course! In a heart beat, i hated the bugs but I felt so free being away from the congestion in Nassau, its any wonder how anyone moves from the family islands to Nassau. We are actually thinking about doing another island sometimes in the future, our next choice is Rum Cay... We saw some pictures of the island and we were sold. Who would have though right? No one who knows me is going to believe that I fell in love with the family island life.

(I will add pictures later...lol)

some highlights from our vacation, we aren't good at taking pictures... thats something we have to work on...

UPDATES:D

So a lot has been going on lately, and i have many things that i want to blog about, and even though i have had a lot of free time to do so i have been lazy so i didn't do it. (Dang thats one long sentence...lol you can breathe again) Any who i am going to take a large chunk of my day to post and sorta catch up on the things i wanted to blog about. I also have a number of posts i started a while back that are still in draft mood because i wasnt sure if to post it or not... ( I still haven't decided)... Anyways on the the regular posting. (This Update is totally random and not really an update at all it is more like a random rambling post. ANYWAYS. WHATEVER ON TO THE NEXT..lol

Fun Weekend :D

I had so much fun over the weekend. Sir and I went to the theatre and we saw Prince of Persia on Saturday and Alice in Wonderland on Sunday. Saturday was a great day! We did a little bit of shopping before we went to the see the movies, (took our bags back to the car of course). Oh how I love shopping! 

Even though I was convinced that I would walk out of the theatre feeling as if I wasted an hour of my life I am pleased to say i was wrong. Prince of Persia is a great movie and I would recommend for everyone to see it.  After we left the theatre, sir and I took a quiet stroll through the empty streets (the streets were actually pretty quiet, its not like i was so mesmerized or consumed with love that it felt like we were the only two persons left on earth.)  to the Chinese restaurant and we ate the best Chinese food i have ever eaten. I cannot remember what we talked about but i remember how warm i felt inside and how happy i was to be in his presences, I felt good that he was in my life and the day was perfect. 

As I mentioned before on Sunday we went to see Alice in Wonderland, with all the hype surrounding the movie, I really thought it was going to be another fun filled Disney film. However, I was wrong! That was the worse movie I have seen in recent times, it was boring, and at times, I even believe that I fell asleep. Nevertheless, even though the movie was boring, Ronald and I didn’t let the fact that the movie sucked ruin our day together, The weather was gloomy on Sunday, completely different from the sunny day we had the day before, and instead of taking a romantic stroll to a restaurant we drove to the nearest McDonalds. While we were in McDonalds, we talked again about everything and nothing and like always, it felt so right to be together…