I am starting to miss straight hair :(

My last relaxer was in November 2007 when I did that relaxer I had no intention on it being my last. I had already tried going natural three times before and each time I failed epically. The cause of my "failure" to stay natural if I could call it that had more to do with the fact that I was bored with having natural hair than it had to do with me missing relaxers. Recently. I noticed that the longest I have even been natural was two years. It seems whenever the third year was approaching I get a strong desire to relax my hair. Everyday I think about what it will be like to have straight hair again... You may probably be thinking why I am don't get straight it with a flat iron or pressing comb? I agree it's definitely a temporary fix to get straight hair, however, the time it takes to straighten my hair is soooooooooo annoying I am only complete a portion of my hair before I give up. Likewise, I am too cheap to pay someone else to straighten it for me... What am I going to do? We shall see i guess...

This picture was taken three days after I got Sir to flat iron my hair, He also had to cut off two inches of split ends.... This was sometimes in June that I straightened my hear... 

Front View

Back View... (see my cousins and rough ends?) 

This Picture is with my hair curly the day the Mirror Lied to me,,,

When I looked in the mirror i saw BIG HAIR! The camera showed me a shrunken mat...lol I couldn't smile on the picture cause this was like the fifth one I took and i already knew this wasn't what i was expecting... 

5 Things that I am "afraid" of...

It's been a while since I made a post. The only problem with that is I have no idea what to post about... So I thought I would just make a post about what I am afraid of...

1.  I am afraid of the idea of flying... Some of you may be confused at this point... I bet you are thinking that I mean that I am afraid of planes or flying itself ( I am not insane I know i can't make myself fly...lol) but you would be wrong. I am not afraid of being on a plane but rather, it's the idea of getting on a plane that terrifies the bejesus out of me. I have no idea why that is but whenever I am waiting to board the plane I have to give myself a peep talk and I have the tell myself that running away and crying like a little girl won't change anything the ticket is bought I have to go! I know you are probably thinking now if I am like that while sitting at the gate what must I be like on the plane? Well once I am on the plane all the fears go away and I am completely excited about the journey ahead... Strange but this is true.

2.  I am afraid of mouthwash. Well it's more that I am afraid of the idea of swallowing mouthwash. I do not ever gargle mouthwash because I have convinced myself that I am going to swallow it. Which will result in me  burning my stomach out and eventually having internal bleeding because I forgot it wasn't something that I could swallow.

3. I am afraid of ledges. I know I am not alone on this one. I am not standing close to the edge of anything screw that. I don't do this either cause I have convinced myself that if I stand over the edge of something someones unsupervised child is going to bump into me or this massive wind is going to blow out of nowhere and I am going to fall to my death... (Yea I am at fear number three and I am starting to notice a trend I think I am just paranoid.)

4.  I am afraid of driving... No explanation if you live in Nassau Bahamas you probably are afraid of driving too...lol 

5. I am afraid of being in a house by myself. I am seriously paranoid. Right now I am sitting in a house by myself and I have been giving myself peep talks the whole time I was writing this post. I am constantly reminding myself that there isn't some ghost sitting next to me right now, the breeze I feel on my neck is just  coming from the open window not from someone I can't see breathing on my neck. And the sounds I hear of someone walking is only in my mind. And there is no need to walk fast (when i go from the bathroom back to the room) cause nothing is chasing me. And locking the door does keep the ghosts out...lol Yea i know right???? Someone call get this girl on some meds. 

Teenagers are really funny...lol

My 13 year old cousin is a fan of a group on facebook called " I like being single because it beats being in the wrong relationship"...lol Someone please catch me, I am about to faint...lol It is funny that youngsters really believe they have an understanding of how the world works... I remember those days of being naive in thinking that I understood how the world worked. 

Current Mood: Happily reminiscing about the days when i was young and naive. 

Finish The sentence…

After I did mine, my boyfriend thought it would be a good idea to respond to it too. I think you will notice that he is just as obsessed with me as I am with him... The only thing I can say is "this dude"... (inside joke...lol)

•I love... Everything about my girlfriend
•Right now I want... to be home with my girlfriend (Home being in a house of our own)
•I feel like... Some things just take too long, while others don't last long enough
•I hate it when... I do my best, am proud of myself, and others kicking my pride right back down
•I fear... I would end up being too busy with daily routines to not have time for what I want
•I'm lonely without... my girlfriend

•I need... to set a goal in life – job wise – so I have something to work towards

•Today I... have spent most of my time at work… chatting with my girlfriend

•Tomorrow I'm... going to do the exact same thing. Added to that I'm visiting my grandmother in the evening

•I just... want to make sure that my girlfriend is happy and I want to be close to her

•I want to meet... no-one else. I rather keep my life simple when it comes to acquaintances
•I'm hungry for... my girlfriend's cooking :D yum!
•I love it when... my girlfriend lays her head on my chest at night

•I'm afraid of... losing my girlfriend due to old age or accident
•I'm listening to... my colleagues making phonecalls
•I'm wearing... an orange tshirt, jeans, black socks, white shoes

•I want to get... a huge 3D LED HD TV with a high quality sound system and comfortable chairs

•I cant... seem to spend as much time as I want with my girlfriend

•I'm nervous to... upset/annoy my girlfriend again

•I feel happiest when... it's just me and my girlfriend spending time together and laughing

Finish The Sentence…

 

•I love... My Sir, My Family and My close and loyal friends
•Right now I want... find a career and direction for my life.
•I feel like... I am just drifting idly through life
•I hate it when... people chew with their mouths open… Damn that is annoying
•I fear... I won't find true fulfillment
•I'm lonely without... I can't say that I ever truly feel lonely

•I need... to get my life in order, take better care of myself, learn how and plan and follow through but most importantly I need to learn dutch!

•Today I... took a shower, ate lunch, went online and pretty much laid in bed… (exciting right?)

•Tomorrow I'm... probably do the same things I did today only in a different order

•I just... want to marry the man of my dreams (Sir) and be happy.

•I want to meet... There isn't anyone special that I want to meet.
•I'm hungry for... Egg Rolls (I used to hate these things now I crave them…lol)
•I love it when... Sir and I lay in bed together and watch a comedy movie

•I'm afraid of... nothing at the moment
•I'm listening to... one dutch program but I am about to change the station.
•I'm wearing... orange tee and gray jeans (Holland is playing in the World Cup today the Orange is in support of the team)

•I want to get... an HTC phone…lol

•I cant... imagine my life without Sir…

•I'm nervous to... age…

•I feel happiest when... I am with Sir. He really makes me feel special. He loves me for who I am…